Overstressed

I've been in some kind of funk lately. I'm not really sure what it is or what is causing it. I keep snapping at the smallest things (of course they don't seem small at the time...to me at least :) ). Justin asked me today if I needed some meds so I could calm down... He was joking of course, kind of. When I stepped in gum tonight in the Wal-Mart parking lot I actually said something to the effect of the universe was out to get me today. First of all, that's not even the type of thing I buy into. Second of all, give me a break self. The best way to describe what I've been feeling is overwhelmed and anxious. I feel like I'm not measuring up, not as good as I should be. At what, you might ask? Life. I dunno. I'm constantly stressed and it's taking a toll on my family. I'm not sleeping much or well. I know that doesn't help. I think I'm going to take a break from the blogging and facebook worlds for a couple of days just to remove those extra things. I think maybe I've just got too many things going on. I'm in the middle of about a million (ok maybe that's an exaggeration) projects. I need to de-clutter life a little and maybe I'll feel better. I'm very much looking forward to getting out of town here in a couple of weeks and even more so to an anniversary trip for just Justin and I in September. Hopefully time away from home will help...we'll see. But for now I'm taking a break from all this. I'll get back to the 30 days of music eventually. No promises about when I'll post again, but I'll be back.

Prayers are appreciated.

I Have Nothing Cute to Say...It's Too Late at Night.

Well, I said Reagan had been teething pretty easily with these two teeth and now I regret it. She has had a horrible day. She was crying and cranky for most of it. I put her to bed early and used the time to make some more bows for her.

I know the navy may seem random, but it was made for a specific outfit. :)

In one of her non-crying moments she was playing in her room and when I went to check on her she was doing this.

I guess she's gonna start climbing everything. Uh-oh. She also likes to step up on the side of her activity jumper.

Day 21 of 30 days of music is a song you listen to when you're happy. I don't necessarily listen to this everytime I feel happy or only when I feel happy, but I think it's a happy song. How can you not smile when listening to it?

Days 19 and 20

Had a migraine last night, hence another catch up post for 30 days of music.

Day 19 is a song from your favorite album. I have lots of favorites but one that gets played a lot is The Shade of Poison Trees by Dashboard Confessional. The song I picked from that album is Where There's Gold. It always gets stuck in my head and I'm singing it forever when it does. But that's ok....because it's a good song. :)

Day 20 is a song you listen to when angry. These days I don't ever find myself angry enough to need this kind of release. But, back in the drama filled days of late high school and early college this was a favorite of mine. I had a lot of things going on then that would build up until I couldn't take it anymore. I would crank it up as high as I could and ride down the road screaming the song at the top of my lungs. It was a really good release for me. I would use the song to get it all out. I actually still love the song, I just lead a much happier and calmer life now. Less need for screaming and such. :)

You Got to Rise UP and Think About Somethin'

Sunday night was a rough night. I couldn't shut my brain off to go to sleep. When I finally started to go back to bed somewhere between 1 and 2 am, Reagan woke up screaming. Her gums have been hurting because her top two front teeth are still coming in. She went back to sleep after a while of rocking but kept crying out through the night. Around 4:45 am a dog got caught in a trap the dog catchers had out in our neighbors yard and he went nuts for a good while. I say all that to say I went to bed early last night so there was no blog post. :)

Yesterday's 30 Days of Music was a song you hear often on the radio. We don't really like the local stations and for a while didn't have xm in our car anymore (now we do thanks to an early bday present from Jeremy to Justin) so we mostly listened to cd's. But when we did listen we would here this song a lot and it's one we really like. I know it's not new, but I really like it!

Day 18 of 30 Days of Music is a song you wish you heard on the radio. Earlier in this whole experience I chose a song by Hanson and told you I'd show you some of their newer stuff later on. This is from their latest album. I really love their sound. And yes, that is Weird Al on the tambourine. :)

Today we made a trip to Tuscaloosa. In case you don't know, Tuscaloosa is the biggest town near us. It's about an hour away. If we want to do any shopping somewhere other than Wal-Mart that's where we have to go. We took the car in to get a switch of some sort replaced and to get it serviced. After that we went to the most wonderful place on Earth...Hobby Lobby. :) I bought some ribbon to make Reagan some more bows and then we went to Michael's to get the stuff to make her birthday present. We bought an unfinished rocking chair and some paint. We're going to paint it up in fun bright colors. I'm excited about this project! I just hope it turns out the way I see it in my head. But, the good thing about paint is that you can always paint over it! :)

Oh, He'll show alright!

Day 16 of 30 Days of Music is a song you used to love but now hate. I don't guess I ever really loved this song. But when it first came out I really liked the sound of it. I'm one of those people who tends to listen to the sound of the music and voices more so than the actual words. Especially the first few times I hear a song. But once I caught about the third line of the song that was is for me. I chose Thnks fr th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy. The whole song really isn't good. It talks about one night stands and that sort of thing. But the line that really gets me is "in case God doesn't show, let the good times roll." As soon as I would hear the first notes of the song I would try to change it before that line played. The flippant attitude toward God just makes me angry.

Another Month Older:11 Months

Reagan is 11 months old today! Wow. In just 3 weeks we will be having her first birthday party! That’s just crazy.

She is getting really good at mimicking words. She never gets them quite right, but she will try to repeat things we say. A frequent one is thank you. She also says something every time we say amen at the end of a prayer. While Justin was gone I said I love you and she parroted it back at me! I’ve not been able to get her to do it again though. Lots of times she will try to say the last word you say. She knows who mama and dada are and when we tell her no no she will shake her head and say, “nananananananana.” She’s so cute.

While Mom was here she got her some Nike tennis shoes. They’re so cute! She’s not real great in walking in them yet, but she’s getting better.

Her walking is getting better and better. She’s getting a lot faster and is using walking as her main mode of getting around. She still crawls some, but usually she walks. Here she is showing off how good she’s getting.

She has mastered the art of pouting.

She loves her bath time!

I love how she looks like she's up to something in that picture! :)

She’s growing up so fast, but she’s still tiny. Today her 9 month jeans were falling off while she was walking around the house. She’s eating like crazy though so maybe some growth is coming soon. She now thinks she needs to eat whatever is on your plate. Even if it’s something she can’t chew. She has eaten mashed potatoes, fries, green beans, and bananas. She gets about half a banana every night and loves it. Here’s a video of her eating green beans today.

Reagan had a great time playing with the zinnias today.

She was pulling the petals off one at a time.

I now have all the parts of Reagan’s outfit for the party! I had shown you the tutu and head band, but now I have some leggings and the embroidered t-shirt. The shirt came in today and it is sooo cute! I can't wait to see her in this outfit and take pictures of her in it! She's going to be the cutest little birthday girl in the world!

A Better Woman

Day 15 of 30 Days of Music : a song that describes you. I love Christina Aguilera's voice. Unfortunately, most of the time the content of her songs is not very appropriate whatsoever and her clothing in minuscule. There is a lesser known song of hers called Save Me From Myself that I absolutely love. Probably a lot of why I love it is because I feel like it completely describes how I feel about the influence Justin has had on my life. He has saved me from myself in just about every way possible. I don't know where I would be today without him. I know I wouldn't have become the kind of person I am now. I love you babe!

Annnnnd of course, there is an immodest scene in the video so I found this one. The photos in it are really pretty.